The Past Few Days

For the past few days, my life has revolved around the favourite pastime of most girls – shopping. And it is the best thing ever, I had tons of fun buying clothes and looking at clothes. But I have a valid excuse to go on a crazy hunt for clothes because Chinese New Year is just around the corner.

However, this post is not for me to brag about my shopping adventure, though I did bought quite a number of really nice clothes and this really cool looking coat. Also, I had fun with the fish spa that I went, after a tiring day of shopping. The fishes were like huge and it felt really ticklish when they were feeding off my leg but it was fun nonetheless. Here’s a picture of those big fishies.


That is beside the point, this post is about my new hammy, Potato a.k.a Fan Su. It is the smallest hamster I have ever seen. But because it’s still really young, I can’t tell the gender. So, I have to wait till it’s older to see if it’s a girl or a boy.

These are few pictures of it:

This is when we just bought it. Look at it, it's so tiny compared to the box.

This is how it looks like, upclose and personal.

Don't let this picture fool you. They may look like they are really close, but they have already fought for a few times. And no, Kichi didn't bully Potato because it's small. They are both at fault. Potato actually initiated a couple of fights. But I've managed to stop them in time, before things get ugly.

I really hope they will get along well. My sister says their relationship is very similar to ours and I have to say, she might be right.

Random Thoughts Gathered

I have been really free lately, as stated in one of my previous post, and I have been doing nothing but the required needs to live and anything for the sake of entertainment, like internet and TV. Through this time, I have gathered quite a number of thoughts that I feel like pouring out in here and since it’s obviously not like I can gather much thoughts over watching TV, so, I’m definitely talking about the internet. Ok, maybe I can. But that is not the issue right now.

Over these past few days, being bored and all, I managed to find a few of my old classmates/good friends from primary school, through the internet. It’s not that I’m a heartless bitch and didn’t want to stay in contact with any of them. It’s just that I lost all of their contacts info during a move and I don’t exactly have very good memory. Also, I had some things going on back then, so, trying to contact them again was the least of my problems. And that was exactly how we fell out of touch for five whole years.

I was and still am, very glad to have found them again. And through the course of chatting with them, I also found out that we all have definitely change, whether by appearance or the way we are in general. Everything is definitely not as it used to be, which was full of innocence. We were so naïve back then, or at least I was.

Not that we are evil or anything now (ok, maybe I am a little evil), it’s just that I realize, we all have grown up in a way, as absurd as it may sound to people who know me. We now have dreams that we want to fulfill, goals that we want to reach; and personally, I find that fun, amazing and glad that we pretty much turn out to be nice people. Not that I want any of us to become evil or a delinquent.

Anyway, I’m done being ‘emotional’ and sentimental. Now, I have a more pressing issue to talk about. It’s about me. Duh…

During my chat with Christine, who I may add, did an amazing job keeping in touch with most of our old classmates, I found out some stuff about few of my old classmates. And one of them is about this one old classmate that went to the same high school as me but somehow, been in different classes for all five years, actually told her that I am ‘lan si’ (a rude Chinese way to call a person, a stuck
up) in school.

When I heard that, let’s just shocked is an understatement. I mean, what have I done to deserve that title. Turns out, it’s because I didn’t greet him when we meet and because I looked the part. Well, if he thought about it from a different angle, he would have also notice that he didn’t make an effort to greet me too. I’m not saying that my gesture didn’t seem rude. Of course, it was a rude gesture. I ignored a friend of 6 years for 5 freaking long years. But he was no better than me.

Also, it’s not like I’m all to blame, we just turned 13 back then, hitting puberty. Give me a break, for God’s sake. I had stuff going on and talking to an old friend, especially a guy didn’t seem like a fun thing to do at the moment. Especially if somehow whenever you talk to a guy, your ex-best friend will go all ‘WHOOO!’ on you… I didn’t have the mental strength to take all that. So, sue me.

Besides that, I was confirmed today that I have a stuck up look. I even went as far as to ask a few friends to see their opinion (since the whole me being stuck up was mention) and most of them say that I look stuck up at certain times. It’s not like I didn’t know about it before, it’s my face, of course, I would know about it. My sister and mum even had the courtesy to tell me that I look like a stuck up person. But it’s not my fault….

It’s those stupid, small eyes fault. I guess, in a way, it’s still my fault since it’s MY eyes. In fact, I noticed that when I choose to erase any hint of emotion from my face, which I do rather often when I’m bored and alone, without my friends. That is when the stuck up face appears. I also noticed that when I smile, that is when I look well, almost innocent(?). I know, you must be thinking that I’m very vain for looking in the mirror all the time till I can differentiate when I look stuck up and not. So, I need you to think logically. I’m a GIRL, there’s a MIRROR, go figure.

Also, the world can’t expect me to smile when there’s nothing worth smiling about. I mean, I refuse to be taken as a ’tanjung rambutan’ escapee. Also, I’m an expressionist most of the time when interacting with people, my facial muscle and soul needs to rest and be void of any emotion. Being optimistic all the time is a tiring job and I can’t be happy all the time. Do I look like I came out of a fairytale where bad things never happen? The answer would be no.

Even the happiest and most optimistic person needs time off and switch off the happy mode for a while. God gave us various emotions and I intend to use all of them. I can’t let God down, now can I? So, to whoever who is reading this and knows me, just chill and relax, I won’t bite or snub you. I’m just resting.

*Sigh* I’m glad that I got off my chest. I feel so much better. Oh well, I think I’m going to go mess with my dear depress hammy. I need to cheer my baby up.

She Wasn't Joking...

It’s true. She didn’t lie to me and it is not some sick prank (not that I think she would play such a cruel prank).

One of my hammy really did pass away. And the hammy was my sister’s hammy. Even though when we bought them, we decided to differentiate it, like who owns which hammy. I still can’t believe that smallfry died. I mean, we might have differentiated them and have personal ownership over them. I still love both of them very dearly. We still loved them both equally and dearly. They are just such adorable things.

In fact, last night when my sister called me up and told me about it, I was very much in denial and can’t really accept the fact. Not that I accepted the fact this morning. But I had to accept the cruel, harsh fact when my sister just arrive at my aunt’s place not long ago, along with my hammy. She had to bring her along because she has not been acting like her usual running around self.

According to my sister, ever since the incident, she’s been acting weird. She was hiding in the bottle jar that we place in the aquarium (serve as their cage). Also, when my sister bathe her last night, she didn’t struggle like she usually did and didn’t even bother to dry herself. My sister had to resort to drying her manually, which was rubbing her fur. Considering we can’t exactly place her under the fan or hairdryer, it would kill her. And losing one hamster was bad enough, I don’t think we want to go through another lost anytime soon.

I can’t believe how big an effect the little hammy could have upon me. When my sister explained the situation when she found them, I couldn’t help but cry. I feel like such a useless owner. I can’t believe smallfry left us.

This is few of our hammies’ picture, in order to remember her.

In here, there are sleeping, just like how they usually are.

This is a picture of Smallfry asleep. Isn't she just adorable...

This is when my sister manage to coax her into sleeping in her palm.

I think I'll go check up on Kichi now. I hope she's not too sad over the lost of her bestie/sister.

I Hope She Is Joking With Me

My sister just called me and she told me that one of our hamster just passed away. She said that the body was crushed and the other hamster is frightened out of its skin. She can't identify which hamster died, since she is terrible at differentiating our hamsters.

She's separating the hammy now. I still can't believe one of my hammy passed away. They are suppose to be able to live for around two years. But it has only been a year. I refuse to believe it.

I'll be going back soon to check on the other hamster. This has not been my day.

My Boring Days, Doing Nothing

Life has been a bore. I have not done anything productive for the past few weeks. Even though when I should have been doing something, I just couldn’t and wouldn’t do it. I’m currently in a state of freaking LAZY, like I have always been, but this is definitely by far beyond my standard of laziness. I don’t seem to be motivated to do anything, except for surfing the internet, watching the television and other stuffs that is necessary for me to continue living on.

It’s not that I’m complaining about being lazy (ok, maybe I am). But I kind of miss school. KIND OF. It’s not that I miss the teachers or the homework or anything. I would never miss the teachers or the homework. Ok, I might miss a few teachers. For example, Pn Chew (She’s so nice and adorable. I miss her already), Pn Vijaya (She’s so cool. A little garang when she wants to but nonetheless, a funny teacher) and Pn Liew (She’s so funny and she just makes learning fun, especially when she explained about the rusting of iron). I am definitely giving them a hug when I take results in March. Which reminds me, I should schedule a time with Aiza, Heidi and Hallie to go find Dr. Wu. He is like the best and most funny Physics tuition teacher, a student can ever get.

Anyway, what I miss about school is the routine life that I have been living for eleven years. ELEVEN YEARS. It’s not as easy as it seems (and I thouhgt) to break off an old habit. I also miss my friends too. I don’t get to see them as much as I used to, obviously. Amy already started college, Hallie is so busy with her rugby, Mano just got back from her vacation (so she’ll be busy unpacking and stuffs, I think).

Well, I hope I would break out of my laziness with the upcoming move in February, which I hope is still on schedule. Also, I would like to tell my sister here (if you’re reading): I’m SO SORRY for not helping you, even though you asked me to. I’m just too lazy. Not a good excuse but bear with me. If you could survive with me for all these years, I think you can survive longer.

The Beginning Of A New School Year

Today is the beginning of an entirely new school year and I’m NOT IN IT. I can’t even begin to express my joy of not needing to wake up early, wear that hideous uniform that the government forces us to wear and going to school. Actually I can express my joy.

First of all, considering I’m a lazy person and absolutely hate waking up before 11 in the morning, waking up for school for the last few years was not an easy task. I actually skipped a lot of days of school because I overslept. But that’s an entirely different story. THANK GOD that it’s finally over… That is, at least until college. But I’m going to enjoy every second of lazy-ing around before I go to college. But that would be around May. So, I still got time.

Second, I can’t stand the uniform that we are forced to wear. The baju kurung is ok but the pinafore is a terrible thing a person can wear to school. The side of the pinafore has these freaking huge space for the hands and it continues till the waist. So, it leaves the girls with these huge gap at the side. The white blouse that we wear underneath doesn’t do a good job at hiding the colour of a person’s bra. But I think the biggest problem of all about the school uniforms is the colour. The students that wear them are high school girls. They have menstruation and it might stain the uniform. But the government didn’t think of that and made the high school uniform BLUE while the primary school uniform DARK BLUE (almost black). Primary students don’t get menstruation till later, nearing their last two years at primary school. But for all five years at high school, the girl will have it throughout the time. How in the world is the high school girl going to hide the fact if she accidentally stain her uniform?? Seriously, the government should rethink the colour of the uniforms and change it. Pity those students.

Third, going to school has it’s ups and downs. At school, I get to see my friends and we get to chat. But I would also have to see the teachers that are mean and a little mental. It is so rare to find good, nice and sane teacher nowadays.

Anyway, I’m so happy that I DON’T NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!! I’m so happy. I even gloated to my nephews and nieces. I know it is a mean thing to do. But it is just so fun. I totally understand why my sister gloated to me when she finished high school. I don’t blame her at all, now that I understand the joy of it.